Some days.....

Some days, I feel like I am on auto pilot.
Some days, I feel like I have no life.
Some days, I feel older than I am and as old as I tell everyone I am.
Some days, I feel like I know nothing.
Some days, I feel like I know more than the doctors.
Some days, I really miss my parents and just want to go home - their home.
Some days, I really miss reading my books.
Some days, I feel separated from my biological family and closer to my chosen family.
Some days, I feel so MUCH and feel so LITTLE at the same time.
Some days, I have a zillion things to do and just can't get a thing done.
Some days, the do-to list actually gets pitched in the trash.
Some days, I crave chocolate SO BAD, I eat it from the Hershey's bottle by spoon because that's all I have handy.
Some days, I wonder what the hell it up by older brother's butt and warped mind.
Some days, I REALLY miss Amber.
Some days, I feel like I have lost my connection to God.
Some days, I feel that the world as we know it, will never be the same, the good times are over.
Some days, I feel that the world as we know it, will be greater than ever.
Some day, I want to finish organizing my pictures and put more on my walls.
Some day, I want to lose more weight.
Some day, I want to get my books out of storage.
Some day, I want to win the lottery - oh wait, you have to play first!
Some day, I want to be able to look back in my life and say that I did make a difference.
Some day, I want to move again, but it won't be this year (yes, I am staying here another year)
Some day, I want to be able to get another pet.
Some day, I want to have nicer furniture.
Some day, I want to be able to make enough money to live comfortably.
Some day, I will regret some of things I wanted to do and didn't.

Today, I am thankful for so many things: the love of my parents and family, my health, my job, my apartment, my friends, the children in my life, the people I work with. I get such a kick out of the smiles on Ascanio's face and the how he smiles with his eyes, the wonder of the new born baby Jacob Truman, the joy of hanging with Elayna, the laughter and love from my nieces and nephew. I am able to go up and down the stairs, see the wonderful changing of the colors from dead of winter to the brightness of spring, smell the fresh scent of rain washing the earth, hear the birds sing and children playing on the days by hearing aids aren't acting up, and I know that tomorrow is another day. Today, I am thankful that I am catching up on my sleep too!